The New Normal?
It’s been quite some time since the last post and this time I have some positive news to share – I got a job and will be starting a week from Monday! They flew me to DC last week for a day of interviews and I was thrilled to meet the team and learn more about the company.
I found a special gift from Ken this week while I was cleaning & waiting to hear back about the job. Inside a metal pill case on a tiny scroll Ken had written, “I’m so proud of you. I know you did great! I hope you get the job but if FATE has other plans, so be it. I’ll always Love You.” I absolutely believe Ken is here in this house with me and he led me to find that tiny pill and open it, what a gift! It was strange coming home and not being able to celebrate with him. This is my new normal. However, I have great friends and family and I celebrated with my neighbor Alice and her kids last night.
Ken’s Pill Gift
I have been spending a lot of time cleaning and preparing the house for my family’s arrival at Thanksgiving. I am SO happy they are coming to visit. People have said that the cleaning is healthy, a way of purging and having some control over my life. I also found voice memos Ken had recorded on his phone. He must have left one on the trip to Mexico before his initial seizure in which he said quite simply, Move to Mexico. Another one focused on making big changes in his life, a testament to his spirit to fight like hell!
My sweet kitty Mila had surgery this week to remove a tumor she had on her chin. We won’t hear back the results until next week. All day while she was gone I couldn’t help but worry and it brought back the pain and memory of hospitals, Ken’s surgeries and terminal illness. I’m hopeful that her results will be normal and that she will not have cancer.
The new normal involves routines, cooking all meals, walking, cleaning/purging, my daily practice of yoga and of course thinking of my sweet Ken. I can’t believe it’s been four months now. I know that he would want me to succeed in my new job and to carry on. I am bound and determined to make him proud of me.
There will be a Miles for Hope Brain Cancer walk in two weeks and Tina & Patrick Little will be walking and honoring Ken, team name Gray Matters. I’m hoping to Join them.
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Gongratulations to you Tina! All the best in your future!
Dear Tina,
Congratulations on your job. A new journey begins. I hope your kitty will be well. We have a kitty too, his name is Pepper and we love him so much.
May your Thanksgiving be very special with your family and friends and a healthy kitty. My thoughts and prayers are with you and those you love.
Sincerely,
Ilse
That’s great news about your new job, Tina! I’d like to hear all about it. Ken would be so proud of you, I believe. I hope Mila will be okay, too.
Love you Tina! You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so very happy about your new job! Many congratulations! You go girl! God bless you and continue to comfort you in the days and months ahead! XOXO Annie
Congratulations Tina…
Thank you so much Tina for sharing your thoughts and activities. Yoga is wonderful, is it not? Please keep sharing. I have found and continue to find Ken’s and your posts inspiring to me! God Bless.
Oh, your kitty Mila is beautiful and I pray she is ok!!!!
Hello Love! Best of luck to you in your new job! I love the note from Ken, and I too feel he is with you while you are making this amazing transition. Blessed Be.
Enjoy your holidays with the family!
Much Love to you xxoo
Great news about the new job Tina. I hope it is all you want it to be. Take care.
Kim
Congratulations on the new job Tina. I am not surprised that your beloved Ken always had you on his mind and in his heart so the letter you found is what I would call a “Love and Faith Testament Letter” to his love. He knew you could do it. All the best wishes to you and your cute kitty. Have a blessed Holiday with your family.
Much Love and peace to you:))
Tina J
Well…my 67 year old brother was diagnosed with glio grade 4 last week, surgery last Thursday, now waiting to start his journey with him. Dang, what a nightmare this is gonna be. So sorry for your loss but do appreciate all the information here. God Bless